OHERLLO \o/
when was the last time i updated?
....well, ok. not important, let's skip this.

it's been a long time since i last checked tumblr. ok, not really. maybe around three days or something. but for me, it's a long time. and every time i checked tumblr, what did i open first? no, not the dashboard. it's the one with kyumin tags because i'm biased. and yesterday i found something...amazing. i love mikitachi, her drawings are nice and she drew a kyumin FA (kind of, idek) omfg. they are fucking against the wall in that drawing /nosebleeds asdasfaslkfj and it's. so. hot.

here's the drawing. please be warned that this is a kyuhyun/sungmin (which means m/m (male/male), slash, BL, gay, homosexual, you name it) and the drawing is rated. i'm not responsible for any corrupted young minds (lol). and PLEASE DO NOT TAKE OUT/DO NOT POST IT ANYWHERE ELSE.

there's also this FA by kappa_ELF on twitter. she's just as amazing. and it's my personal fav because they look exactly like kyuhyun and sungmin :D lol, rated too, by the way.

my friend, julie/mochu/yoshi (really, she has many names) also made a kyumin doujinshi but she...divided the parts to one pic per post so you will have to click "next" for the next part... there's also some implied sex, but not really. and sungmin crying in the middle of doing it is such a turn off LOL but dw the doujinshi is cute n__n BITCH I STILL WANT SOME ACTION >:(
but she's not really into k-pop now. she's into the harry potter fandom. i think she really loves tom felton to the point she always says she's going to fuck him...? umm. awkward. yeah. but she ships harry/draco and so do i >:) although i'm still in the k-pop fandom. /shrugs

some of you might think that i'm such a bad girl....or shameless or whatever and it's disgraceful for me to read/watch (ghei) rated things. LOL AT YOUR FACE BITCH. we're normal teenagers here, hello? ok, maybe not so normal in my case since i prefer the gay ones... but that's completely beside the point. AND I'M STILL STRAIGHT YOU MOFOS. i like gay stuffs doesn't mean i'm a lesbian okay -___________-" you guys who think that "omfg this girl is a lesbian since she watches gay movies" are narrow-minded fucks. really.
and i'm the winner here cos i'm brave enough to say that "HEY I LIKE TO WATCH RATED GAY THINGS", unlike some of you who probably are still sulking in your little corner, closing yourself to the world and think that it's not normal to watch porn or liking things that aren't normal.

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but of course, different people different personalities, so i'm not going to judge you. and i totally am not encouraging you to come out of your closet and declare that you're....gay or crazy or something to rest of the world. it's just that...i'm trying to make everything clear.

so..... after being completely perverted (and emo-ish) by those drawings and (gay stuffs and) all, i'm just going to say that today is not a complete bitch. i think god loves me for once o:) or not really. not until my dad came home and when my brother asked him where was the chess he just snapped at my brother and i knew my brother was kind of scared. i hate my dad when he's not in the mood and just released his anger at either on my brother, mother, my housemaid or me myself. it's super annoying. and idk, he purposely raised his voice or something to make all of us scared, but rather than feeling scared, i feel annoyed and want to punch him in the face. but that's not appropriate since he's my dad...but really, the amount of annoyingness is like 1290380192964%.

oh, i also have this dark circles under my eyes. the result of playing audition until 2am. i look so ugly. and fuck this concealer for eyes did nothing to my eye bags when i applied it to them. argh

i've been reading lots of fic from the SGA fandom. and SPN too, sometimes. and i still have to finish watching all episodes of junjou romantica before i leave and some other yaoi stuffs. and antique bakery.

speaking of which, it's just a month left before i'm going to leave. my mom asked me if i wanted to stay here in batam, but i refused. she's spent much money for this. i'm not going to waste it for nothing. someday, one day, i'll prove to my mom that i can be better than what she expected me to be. i'm going to make her happy. i'm going to bring her travel to the places she wants. i'm going to be a good daughter for her. i promised myself i'll do my best for her. quitting is not an option, not now, not ever. and besides, hahaha, i think i really need some guidance from god for me to stop reading/watching rated (or not) gay stuffs. maybe i'll find my life there. and when i stop watching/reading this gay stuff, someone will celebrate. lol

Label: ghei ghei ghei, i'm straight, lolwhut